feeling so sleepy.. actually din wanna blog. but,
haven update for 3 days.. might as well make it snappy (:


on monday.. while the 3 of us were walking to school,
we saw sammi! not shocking ain it?
but its kinda weird lah.. from day 1 of sec 1 to the day we saw her on monday,
we never walked into the school before.
so.. yeah!! one of the highlights of my day.

sometimes, i hate mondays.
cos mondays makes me feel sticky.
that p.e.. gosh.


although its 1+ now, i still feel that its tues today.
should be wed.
oh well, no difference ain it? except for the days & dates.


went for recess with jessie today. sammi dearie went for choir today!!
after jessie bought her stuffs,
she came back, & started thanking us for no reason..
i was abit shocked.. thought what had happened..
so i kept looking at her, her tears started to flow..
shocked again.
asked her what happened..
she said she was touched cos we listened to her,
as we did not really listen to her last year & the year before that.
was abit touched by her lah..
din cry, i controlled myself!! WOOO!

jessie, if you really need a listening ear, tell me!
i'm a good listener, i'm willing to hear you out! (:


had the esplanade performance thinggy..
oh yah! btw, wont be posting the photos now,
most probably post it by the end of this week.
i had a huge headache over what to wear for that performance..
finally decided on the black tee & the white skirt.
my maid suddenly came & put make-up on me.. T_T
went to jec.

anyu & shiping reached there le.
the moment i saw sp, i was at a loss for words.
heh.. its a compliment!!
& that particular guy, i'm seriously SERIOUSLY and i mean, seriously mad at him lah..
he made us miss 2 trains, dunno is it 3 trains anot, according to pf.
super mad. then i thought, i was going to sit beside him.. fuck.

reached the esplanade..
was standing there.. chatting & chatting & chatting..
a grp walked past me, REAL CLOSE.
looked up, saw someone, looked so familiar to me..
OH MY GOSH!!
it was him!! LOL~
he was dressed like..
"undescribable"..
was admiring him.. =/
he was so super shuai + cute!!
hahahahahahaha! no, seriously (:

& i doubt that he have seen me during the performance..
jasmine kept "feeding me with vinegar".
told me that she talked to him.
well, life's like that.
sometimes, you just have to appreciate what people has.


1 thing happened, after the intervention,
my sister suddenly LOST HER HANDPHONE AGAIN..
so she went to the toilet with yilian..
i kept staring at the exit door, saw them coming in.
i listened close, hoping not to hear any sniffing sounds.
cos sniffing sounds means that he/she was crying.
guess wad? called my sis's hp, it was off. i heard sniffing sounds too.
without thinking twice,
i pushed my way out of the people to the exit,
i think i scolded, "fuck".
oops? some other people shhh us.
damn them..
went out with my sister.
the 2 people in black were there..
i practically scolded her for losing her handphone in the toilet.
think that i did not scold her, instead, i lectured her.
cos her first phone was lost in the jp mrt station's toilet on christmas.
& now? its in the toilet again.
i think i've been too fierce.
but, its for her own good right?
she shouldnt be so careless after the first incident.
like me, i've learnt my lessons too. actually,
i din.. heh.

some cleaner came & return it to her in the end..
so relieved, that i cried.
thank GOD!! thank you SO MUCH!!
seriously, if it was lost, i wouldnt wanna think about how my parents would react.
anyways, everything's okay now.
-phew-


its getting late.
i'm turning in.
i'll try to post the pictures soon!
night people!
:D


him?
you look magnificient,
you look wonderful,
you look "oh so perfect"

entry deleted.

sorry, i was feeling so guilty..

sorry..
sorry..
once again..
sorry.

if anyone of you guys read the whole lot of paragraph, pls forget about it..
for those who haven read it,
good for you (:

a week have passed so fast.. esp life in sec 3.
it's so stressing..
& i'm deprived of sleep!! arghh..


had the voting for ex-cos today..
the first was anyu. second was durga.
we were in 4/1 wating. joan came in.. & said,
"joyce!! your turn!" of cos, i freaked out. & i screamed =/
seriously lah, everyone was so scared.. even i was scared too.
the whole class was filled with guides, & i meant, the class was REALLY REALLY full.
the front seats was mrs loh, mrs neo & ms kokila.
didnt want to take the microphone at first. cos my voice really sucks with the microphone lah..
i think my face was red bah.. kept smiling though (:
& the best thing is, I'VE FORGOTTEN TO GREET THE T'CHERS!! gosh..
i've forgotten what class i came from too. =.=""
i said, "err & erm" alot alot of times.
had to vote for 5 ppl. i've even forgotten who i've voted.. how stupid..
on my way out, the 3 teachers were looking at me..
this time, i've rmbed to greet them!
sound like a machine..

went to join anyu & durga after that.
i must say,
guides ended very early today. very very early..

went to have a look downstairs.
saw him in his squad. he kept looking ard..
made me laugh.
hoho!
&, i've said hello to him, he said hi to him.
rejoice!! woohoo!
kept laughing of cos.

jasmine kept pressurising me to tell her that a her which i claimed likes him.
told her in the end.
wells.. no harm done right?
they kept saying that she was a bitch.
tsk tsk tsk.


my weekends are going to be a terrible nightmare to me!
oh fuck.
i need someone to console me.
i feel terrible.. & when i feel terrible, i swear.
oh great.

nowadays.. i think i'm writing short posts.
really shorter than last time.
is it?


i got the feeling.. that i just want to go to the railways tracks.
sit there for hours..
recalling back my past.
my bad memories.. my good memories..
or simply just stare at the sky.

i feel so cold..

i think i'm suffering from anaemia? i'm always lacking of sleep..
BUT! i dont look pale. in fact, i look dark. nice (:

teachers caught me sleeping in class today..
chemistry, physics, chinese, & maths. esp maths period.
i felt so tired.. decided to put my head on the table..
suddenly, i hear no sound. the whole class like went quiet. mdm chang's not talking on the microphone. just dead silence..
looked up, the whole class was staring at me..
after staring, they laughed.
felt so embarassed.. =/
i hate going to school..
makes me feel so fed up.. arghh


tmr, all the sec 3 guides have to say a speech,
to make people vote for you as an ex-cos.
wankee told us to have a speech bout 3-4 mins..
i'm stunned.
still havent thought of what to say.
so dead..


i'm so NOT looking forward to the weekends..
i'm gonna suffer..
i'm gonna kill myself sooner or later..


i had some flashbacks just now.. i suddenly rmbed that time when i was smsing him.
he told me to talk to him. but i dont think i've ever spoken to him..
besides a hi, an ok and a laugh.
i rmbed when i msged him from noon to midnight..
called him "ub", called me "hg"
those times.. gone so far..
just a lil secret.. i havent deleted the sms when he asked me if my birthday was on the 27th of nov.
hohoho! cos i'm so shocked that he knew.
& some other smses of his..
hehh..

chinatown brings me loads of memories i must say..
havent been smsing him nor seeing him nor spoken to him.
feel so sad just thinking of it.
i have loads of comments bout him & a girl.
but i'm afraid that he might come here.
oh wells, he will never come here.
no need to be afraid then :D
he'll just go to that girl's web.. no, i ain jealous..
well, maybe.. just ABIT jealous.
i mean seriously,
no one likes a FAT girl anways (:


HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT
FUCK IT FUCK IT FUCK IT
SHIT IT SHIT IT SHIT IT

3 days since i've last blogged.


i must admit.. these past few days,
it have been sheer madness to me.
i've like been crying the whole night.
imagine, the moment you come home,
& i meant, everytime you come home,
you're being called,
a "cheater"?
how would you feel?
hurt? upset? broken?
thats how i would feel.

we used to quick way out.
yes, we did. have you ever loved us?
instead, you practically SHAMED us.
i thought that you will feel remorseful..
instead, you're filled with anger, filled with rage.
shamed us.. how cruel can you be?
i mean seriously..

you never did asked us why we did that thing,
to make you feel upset.
no, you never asked.
you just told us how you would feel.
thats just simply plain unfair..
the reason was because, you were too harsh on us.
you use vulgar,
you somtimes even resort to violence.
that, i cannot accept.
& stop brainwashing bryan,
get the fuck off bryan, he's innocent.. he's only like, 6? wth.

i wanna say something.
if you people have any comments bout my size,
please refrain from telling me?
some people just wont know the feeling to be hurt by someone's remarks.

i'm in despair.
i hate going home nowadays.
i'm starting to hate school.. alot.
i'm beginning to think of committing suicide.
& i'm thinking of leaving home..
adults just dont understand me..

i hate maths.. i cant catch up in class anymore.. i felt like i'm a huge failure.
i need coaching, but not from him.
i want tuition.. any recommendation?


ms lim told us bout the thru-train thing that our class is taking.
she said mrs teo was not very impressed with our term 1 results.
& said, if this continues, we're going to take our N lvls.
seriously, i think taking N lvls before O lvls is much more better..
at least you got the experience.
after hearing this,
i felt like ending my life.
i'm so god damn fucked up.


i'm sorry for being so ugly,
last but not least,
i'm sorry for being so fat.
i'm sorry people out there..

im gonna be sooo dead tmr..

=]

3 days since i've last blogged.
hohoho!!
MAPLE MAPLE MAPLE!! heh~


went to far east ytd with puifun & yilian.
after that went to J8.

1 sickening problem is..
I HAVE CARSICK!!
oh my god.
this "illness" is coming back.
i hate riding on any single vehicle which have wheels.
i almost puked on the bus.
i almost puked on the taxi.
i almost puked on my dad's car.
i HATE being nauseous!!
mad*


school's reopening soon..
homeworks left undone..
i've left,
2 newspaper articles; 1 book review; 1 journal entry; physics TYS; maths worksheet.
cant rmb if i've left out anything..
oh wells~


blisters!! AHHH!!
i hate new shoes.
new shoes makes me have blisters.
i love old shoes (:


havent let my parents see my progress report.
seeing them being so happy,
i just couldnt bear to see their mad, black & sad faces.

i mean, we've just started our 3rd year in the school.
new subjects are pilling on.
& i used to take NA maths,
but now?
i'm taking express & A maths.
& my brain will take a longer time to catch up in class.
to understand wad mdm chang is teaching.
but i did pass my express maths din i?
but i failed my A maths.. T.T

& chemistry & physics.
its new right?
physics teacher sucks.
his teaching sucks.
no wonder i failed my physics..

chinese!! I'M SO MAD!
but i do have a reason for why i got 49 marks.
fucking tweety bird.
fuck it.


why why why?!
i hope ms lim forgets to collect the progress report.
in the meantime,
just have to hope that we can drag time,
drag on till the next progress report.
how long is this going to take?
i'll just pretend that i've forgotten all bout it.
hope ms lim will NEVER call my parents
-shakes head-


pictures of my purple shoes!

ALAS! beautiful purple~


well, bought these at junction 8.
those salesperson kept looking at me while i'm trying them on.
-.-""
dont think i'll wear these to school..
maybe, maybe not (:


i'm still so fucked up.
i seriously dread going to that concert thinking that i'm gonna sit next to him.
arghhh..


after hearing that song,"stan"
by eminem & dido,
i wanted to cry =/
the song is seriously very saddening.
cant paste it here,
the lyrics is 3 pages long.
woah~


i've hunted to full set of tubes ytd!!!
WOOHOOO~
its maple of cos :D




red flowery tube; black tube; blue flowery tube & purple tube!!
HOHOHOHO~


heres a meaningful poem..

in the darkness i look for someone,
in the cold i stretch out an arm.
but nobody comes,
nobody warms me.
i'm all,
all all alone.
i'm so afraid.

inspired by a book.


i just want everything to be what i want it to be.
is that so wrong?

so mad..
every single games was having problems,
was under maintence..
maple was under maintence till 1400.
neopets was lagging like siao!!
& it hangs.
i've already hacked 5 people's accounts!
woohoo~
& the best thing is, 1 of them was my close friend..
heh..

actually, neopets is still quite fun..
everytime i filled my shop with food,
up to 81 spaces,
after 3 mins, i went back to my shop,
more than half of my shop was being CLEARED!!
woohooo~


okay. seriously, i hope my sister wont see this post..
my sister's friendster name was, "LOSThope"
& theres this guy, named "Dennis",
it was ade's idea to intro him to my sister.
call me lame if you want, i seriously have absolute nothing to do right now..

& TAKE A LOOK AT THIS TESTIMONALS!!
actually, this 4 testimonals, SHORT testimonals..

TESTIMIONAL NUMBER 1;
Hey =)
you are actually quite pretty =)
must have more self confidence ok =)
bye bye=)

TESTIMONAL NUMBER 2;
This girl ah really very nice
it is impossible that she doesn't have a boyfriend =)
whoever becomes her boyfriend is the luckiest guy on earth =)

TESTIMONAL NUMBER 3;
hey cute princess ,
the march holidays are coming =)
can't wait =)
such a nice person is hard to find nowadays
so super niceeeeeeeeeeeeee
not to mention beautifullllllllllllllllll
has a nice personality
nice to talk to
and very humble =)
i shall write until here =)
bye bye cutie princess =)
MUST HAVE MORE CONFIDENCE IN YOURSELF =)

TESTIMONAL NUMBER 4;
hey beautiful princess =)
you must have more confidence in yourself and not always think that your life is meanless ok
i shall write until here
take care
bye bye

---END OF TESTIMONALS---


know wad i think sister?
i think he's beating ard the bush. he's talking to same old stuffs.
he repeats himself.
seriously, i have no idea why my sister likes him.
thats wad i think, i dont even know if my sister like him anot.
& that guy,
he thinks that wad he writes, can make her heart beat faster?
or make her heart jump?
seriously,
if he wanna get hold of her,
he's gonna have to get through & past me first
(:

i'm such a good sister.
-compliments-


i'm filled with angst! i feel so hopeless!!
he did not reply my messgae.
i'll just take it as,
he's forgotten or he fell alsleep.
or his phone sending fail or something.
sometimes, i dont wanna find out the truth.


sorry anyu, shiping & puifun!
esp to anyu!!
sorry for not accompanying you guys to watch nanny mcphee ytd.
i was saving my money for dorm.
hehehe..
once again..

SORRY!


i've observed loads of things.
yes i do.
:D


i want to change my seating for the esplanade!!
CHANGE!
CHANGE!
CHANGE!!!
sometimes, his behaviour really creeps me out.
he lies bout his grandfather or something.
he lies bout his girlfriend in japan,
which he claims that she have passed away as she was having cancer.
he lies bout him driving a sports car.
hello? you're not even 18 or 21?
he lies bout having A HUGE FORTUNE waiting for him in his bank account.
he lies bout having a really cool car.
& the best of all, he's gonna sit next to me during the esplanade performance.
god!
i wanna change places with either jie or puifun or anyu or shiping!!!
HELP!


my arms are still aching..
ouch*


alakazam!
i wish you were a frog!
so that you will listen to me whenever i'm speaking!

i found myself,
having no reason to smile.


oh great.
i'm having aches all over..
my butt hurts. =/
my arms & shoulders hurt..
i think it's becos i have not exercise for ages!
heh~
that explains my size (:


i'm so lazy to get outta the house..
have to go back to school again later.. sighs.
but look on the bright side!
i'm going shopping with asg later! wooo~


ytd.. jie went for an eye checkup.
she complains that she cant see the whiteboard.
gosh.. she's like.. sitting infront of me during class.
& she cant see. hoho!
but i can! cos i have 6/6 vision :D
but! she doesnt need to wear one cos her eyesight is on the borderline of myopia.
i wanna wear glasses too!
^^

looking at the happy faces of my parents,
i couldnt bear letting them down with my utterly disgraceful results..
sighs..


i bought a new bag ytd!!
WOOO!
& my mum was unhappy bout it..
cos on jan, i bought an op sling bag.
& i used it for bout 3 mths, then, i've changed another bag.
she thinks it's wasteful..
but i think it's cool!
having to change bags for 3 mths.
hohoho!


i suddenly thought of an incident,
theres this particular girl, alibaba knows her.
i still rmb, when i was sec 2,
she scolded me, bitch.
we knew immediately it was her.
we were in the computer lab.
so my sis, who was in a rage,
stomped madly to her, and swing that girl to face her,
& she scolded her,
"what the fuck, she wasnt even online, how can she even scold you?! & fucking hell, stop going to her blog! shit you"
yep! thats wad i rmbed.
& i started & diao her.
now, i think shes letting out the infos of people..
ahhh.. complicated.
hehhh~


i'm learning how to repent for my sins.
i wanna do something good for people.
thats why, i'm starting to do good deeds for people..
=)


i wanna return to my childhood..
where there is unlimited happiness.
x)

i feel like changing url..
but,
its so troublesome!!
arghhh..


seriously,
everything i do, no one really bothers me..
nor take notice of what i do.
if i'm doing something bad..
then they will take notice of it.
but if i'm doing something good,
they wont notice it.
i wonder..
does my parents really regrets giving birth to twins?
all they care was my brother,
my 5 year old brother.
younger children tend to get more attention than older children.
no, dont get me wrong.
i dont want any attention.
i'm not an AS nor SA.. & i'm esp not an AA.
hahahaha!


i hate people who say people fat.
FAT PEOPLE RULES!
dont discrminate them..
ever wonder how they will feel after you comment them on their size?
i dont know why..
i'm so sensitive to the 3 letter word.
sensitive!!
i hate that..


i knew it! i knew it long ago!!
no, i did not regret bout his answer.. although i was abit shocked after hearing what he said.
actually, not to me..
wads the difference?

what am i to him?
oh..
peanuts.
heh heh..


i think i'm gonna hate the holidays.
ANTI-MOCKS!
anti everything!!
i just wanna do stuffs by myself..

i'm beginning to hate fnn lessons..
esp practicals.
i hate having to walk to the kitchen alone,
i hate having to walk back to class after the lessons,
i hate having to be under control by someone.
LOOK!
i'm big & strong!
& i'm no push-over.
next time, i'm gonna be fiercer,
& mostly,
i'm not gonna be pushed over by someone who's smaller size than me.
yes, i'm younger than anyone else in the kitchen.

mum & dad,
can i drop fnn?


jessie!
LOVE HAPPY PEOPLE!!
:)


you never did all those things that you used to do.
ahhh.. disappointments..
a fat girl cant do anything right?
as if a fat person can change the future..

miss lim said i was,
cheerful,
chatty,
& was a responsible chemistry rep.
my conduct was excellent.
:D

i wont go into details about my terrible results.
yep~


seriously,
i'm still not sure about how to break the news to my parents..
they're still clueless that we've already got back our progress report.
ahhh..
i feel so bad.

had outdoor cooking.
actually, should be,
"indoor cooking"
heh.
whats the difference?
its just indoor & outdoor.

seriously, those sec 5s seniors of mine are serious "day-brighteners" to me.
:)


joan told me something bout him..
again..
she said he dont talk to girls that much.
only to his class girls..
















































ahhh..
what the heck.
as if it can change anything..


HAPPY! :)
BE LIKE ME.

i'm pretty upset today.


seriously.. he treats me as if i'm invisible.
ahhh..
sad..
disappointed.
-kills myself-

jez told me.
someone called "ah-ma-li-na" knows that i like him.
gosh..
i must admit, i was abit pissed lah..
her whole squad knows.
-.-"""


that god damn bastards,
SHENGLONG & SEBASTIAN!!!
they din take the chinese test,
& therefore,
the chinese marks which i've scored 67 would NOT be counted in my progress report.
what hell..
i'm SOOO bloody pissed off.
so pissed that i cried.
even lk's mad.
sam's mad.
jie's mad.
only those people who pass would NOT be so fed up.
i'm REAL mad.


i'm gonna fail my chinese,
maths,
science,
combined humanities.
argh.. i was really really low today..
even my ss marks would NOT be counted.

told mdm chang that i wanted to jump off the building.
hohoho.
yilian scolded and hit me.
told me not to do anything stupid.
mdm chang told me how to tell my parents.
but i think that will not work ah..
thnks people..


went to mac with pf, sam, jie & jez.
we're like.. having the "last" happy moments before we suffer tmr.
went to the playground..
suggested by jez.
heh heh heh..
played like wild animals.
after that, had some talks btw ourselves.
i'm sure to get some sun burns tmr!
YESYESYES!!
i love getting dark (:
i had a flashback..
when exactly was the last time i had such fun ever since i stepped into secondary school life?
i had loads of laughs.
which i long for..
thnks guys..
i never did think about taking back our progress report when i'm having such fun.
all the best guys!
i'm sure going to flunk EVERYTHING!!

love ya guys!! :D


treat me as if i'm visible okay?
i miss those times badly..

i feel bad,
i feel sad.


i got 67 for my chinese!
for me, its a big big BIG improvement le.
WOOHOOO!!
lk even tried to "kill" tweety bird with a brick!
aiyo..


din do anything during guides today..
we just had some, "talk" to patch things up.
& i asked HER* a qus bout something,
i felt rage all over me all of a sudden..
she's just so unreasonable,
& she's twisting & turning stories.


saw so many people cried for the past few days..
seriously,
whats this world coming to?


gonna complete my fnn..
tatas! =)


sister of mine;
pls dont let miss lim's comments ruined your mood.
i think she doesnt meant what she says.
if she really wants to see mum & dad, i'll help you.
just promise me,
study harder k? (:

yilian;
dont be so stressed up bout the atoms & such yah?
i'll help you complete it!
no doubt bout that ^^

yesyesyes!
just finished half of the fnn homework.
ahhh.. good gracious!
its so difficult. & i've left minerals.
gonna complete it tmr (:


i dont understand.. again..
why cant microsoft word recongise words like,
"anaemia, haemoglobin, tocopherol, calciferol" etc etc..
hohoho!


I HATE THE SECURITY GUARD,
DAVID!
pui!


i was walking home with jie & puifun;
i was at the front while the 2 of them were at the back.
i turned my head back, and
poof!
MY SISTER FELL DOWN ON HER KNESS!
wahahahahaha!! i couldnt stop talking bout it. xD


james kerk's NOT coming for physics lessons tmr!!
WHOOPEE!!


jessie,
take care k? dont say that you're fat or anything.
you're not,
but i am.
& no one really understands me anyways.

oh wells..

guess wad? our school's name wasnt in the syf list. & most of us did not regret.. its like.
their disclipine was SUPER SUPER STRICT!
the sock must be 4 fingers length above your ankles,
no fringes must be seen,
no flying hairs,
no bun-ing up of hair and no pony-tails.
must be plaits.

ahhhh.. strict strict strict.


went to junction 8 after the briefing.
ate at LJS.

sp & anyu had to leave early for tuition while zubaidah had something on.
so, left the ASG! (:

went to take np's! YAYS!


had campfire at rv ytd. theres only the 9 of us attending it.
& i must say, their gateway was simply marverllous!
& v v high too.
overalls, the campfire was quite fun!
we were quite HIGH at the activites.
i love my sec 5 seniors ^^


getting back our progress report soon.
i know it's gonna suck.
hope for the better!

yilian! if you're reading this,
save it here k? send these to ade or pf when they're online yah? X)



the insane clique; ASG!

my hair must have fallen off. shucks >.<

LOOK AT PUIFUN! watatatata! X))

yl's pulling her eye. -.-""

bunch of monkeys. HELP! pf & i cant breathe! =X

ACT DAO! heh heh heh..

the kings & queens!

*pulls out tongue*

moodswings~

cant take this sheer madness no more.


i'll cry whenever mummy & daddy quarels. why dont they understand?
they thought that when both of them shout at each other, the most hurtful ones are their children.
i dread hearing them quarrel.
hoping for the better*


the homeworks given by faizal is getting harder & harder..
esp the one with tables, the fact is,
i dont know how to draw tables using microsoft word.
dumb~


had an A. maths test today & i've forgotten all about it!
i've been craming for history, fnn & english.
ahhh.. my sec 3 life, so stressing.

intially, puifun promised me that she's gonna let me copy her maths test.
BUT! in the end?
it was i who helped her correct her work, and even let her copy mine!
aiyo..


guess who's the new mr kerk's wife?
MY SISTER!
heh heh heh..
whenever i see james kerk, i'll shout out to him, & point to my sister, & say, "MR KERK! MRS KERK'S HERE!"
hohoho!


i wonder.. why does slim & thin people often say that they're so FAT & UGLY? it doesnt make sense.. if those chio & slim people say that they're FAT & UGLY, doesnt that means those people who're really FAT & UGLY worse?
it just doesnt make sense..
*rolls eyes*


guides today was si bei HORRIBLE!!
i think i shouldnt write it in my blog,
or someone else might see it. worse come to worse, she might read it & get mad & starts to cry.. sheesh.
i'll post it as a draft ( :

& btw! i was really really shocked that your comments towards her was, "neutral".
gosh gosh GOSH.. dont you know that word, neutral, really shocked us all?
dont you know you just hurt your best friend?
disappointed*


okay!
NO MORE DEPRESSING MOMENTS!
seriously, i think the t'chers are going to side with her.
like wad one of the guides t'cher said, she's a girl with potential.
doesnt that means she's gonna be the company leader or any of the ex-cos?
sighs.


zubaidah told me something. i guessed she must have saw my reaction towards somebody.
she told me that her 2 **** (a cca) friends said that i like somebody, which was true.
but the fact is, i dont even know them?
& yet, they know who i like. i guess his whole squad must have known it by now.
cool! ^^


syf's tmr. no one says what time to meet nor what to being etc etc..
i guess they're just pissed.
gonna call them later when their anger cools down.

CHEER UP SHIPING! ADELINE! etc etc..
she's NOT worth your anger & tears to shed for
RMB! theres still me shiping!
rmb those times we had? we're so happy & we're pair no. 2 right? had fun playing those games with you,
i missed those times when we are miles away from the word, unhappiness.
cheer up peeps!
:D


i've craving for a movie. but no money..
fan nao!!
ARGH..


put the past behind,
celebrate those good times we had.

even though it happened once in a lifetime,
i'm contented.


this computer of mine is seriously driving me nuts!! arghhh! stupid connection..


hoho!
i've scored 16/35 for my physics!!
-cheers for me-
i dont know why, the moment i got back my physics paper,
i just started smiling and smiling and laughed.

i've failed. yes i have;
but! its my first time right? bu yao qi nei!
i'll do better next time round :D


i do feel sad bout my results,
so i use my markers to write some phrases at my palm.
i wrote..

"BE CHEERFUL!"
&, "smile like me!"
together with some other emotions.
i must admit, that really did helped alot. i'm feeling much more better after seeing those heart-warming words on my palm and in my notebook.
thats one of my way to keep myself away from sadness!^^

no wonder..
my notebook's filled with THOUSANDS of them!
hohoho!!


cant believe kalis's dropping outta fnn and joining art!! i'm thinking of dropping outta fnn too. gonna ask daddy to write a letter to the principal (:


sometimes, we must look on the bright side.
no matter what obstacles that blocks you,
continue your journey and never give up on yourself cause you're the only one who can save yourself.

i'm glad that i've changed my mind about not going to school today (:


i'm left stunned;
speechless;

it came true ^^


& joan!! you made me so embarassed today during guides!!
>.<


i wish today was ..
everyday

i feel terrible today.
couldnt stop making that sniffing noise nor the coughing sound.
so sickening >.<


i keep saying, "ever seen a pig talking? ever seen a pig blah blah blah?"etc etc..
until the guys get so annoyed.
no. seriously guys, i'm a pig :D
hohoho!


ms lim changed our seating plans today after c.t!! gosh. i slept after the physics paper today.
& when i woke up, my vision was blurry. & i could not see a single thing in sight.

well,
guess wad?

i'm sitting at the center of the class, next to me was santosh!! AHHHH!!
-pulls hair out-
& next to santosh was yilian! wooo!!
YILIAN! =)


during maths remedial today, i was calling mdm chang in a loud voice.
she din reply me, so i shout louder.

& that bloody firdaus said, "oi! shut up lah" i'm appalled. i'm not gonna lose to him right? i said, "wtf? was i even talking to you?"
everytime when i'm talking, he'll cut in & start to yak yak yak non-stop.
how rude.
my sis helped me to get back at him.

the shouted the F word to we sisters. mdm chang said that he's contaminated.

WOOHOO!! seriously, the more i see him, the more i wanna hit him right into his bloody idiotic face.


tmr ade & jie's gonna take over guides & become "ex-cos" for the day!
JIA YOU! hope nothing will go wrong like me! X)


EXACTLY 9 MORE MONTHS TO MY BIRTHDAY!
-CHEERS!-


depends..
maybe, i'll not go to school tmr (:


dont leave.

Silence whispers, tragic moments in time. Hatred, madness,
all the feelings of mine.
Lamentation, forgiveness. A world torn apart. Loving, wanting,
feelings from the heart

Alone, unaware, as a tear starts to fall. Afraid, darkness. I fear for all.
Riping, tearing, as my heart breaks

Caring, believeing,
Is all that it takes.


i'm not over the moon,
neither am i rejoicing.


dont throw tantrums at me.
you know that you shouldnt speak to me when i'm mad.
how annoying..

yilian just sent me those thinking day photos. so, here they are!! although its a few days ago.. but, makes no difference! (:

trying to act dao, but found out that i couldnt stop smiling.

we're criminals! 5 girl guides criminals! be very afraid. (:

puifun's slapping me! aww, sad.

adey & me! actually, she's much more crazier than me! hohoho! =)

some guiders are downstairs guiding us through the songs. whheee~

I LOVE MY ASG!!

i was feeling REALLY REALLY upset yesterday. & that mdm soh had made it much worser for me. i wont be posting it in my blog. its too embarassing. seriously, dont you know that my day has already been so bad?! why make it worse for me? i treated you nicely, yet, you discriminate people like me, calling me names. well, fancy that, a teacher calling her own chinese pupil names. seriously, i'm appalled by your comments. you can just keep your mouth shut you know? or just keep your utterly disgraceful comments to YOURSELF.


took the wrong book today for assembly. i took the english book instead of my mother tongue book. i ran back to the 5th floor. during that time, loads of sec 4s were coming down. i ran up, & theres bound to be some shock. & the most funny part that happened. i was running up as i thought no one would be coming down anymore. i ran & ran, at the stairs there, someone actually was walking down in a quick pace. he was from red cross if i'm not wrong, & was the head of red cross? most people i knew said he was v cute & kuku. the moment he saw me rushing up, he like..
JUMPED OUTTA HIS SKIN!! WAHAHAHAHA!
i still can imagine his look on his face. seriously, i laughed real loud. he seems to be very blur in things.


guess wad? faizal din come to school today. NOT COOL. he's always like that. everytime when we're having practical, he DONT come. & everytime when we're having theory lessons, he DID come. its not fair. he din turn up for theory lessons once, and, he took our practical time and made it theory. NOT FAIR! i bet he cant let us have 2 practical lessons a week. sighs.. i miss practical lessons.
not fair not fair not fair!


everytime after pali, sali & gali ended their art lessons, i'll be prepared to listen to their interesting happenings that has happened during their art class. mostly, its about R. they showed me how R laughs during class. i think her laughter is so sickening.. at least my laughter is better right? i think she laughs as if she's having an asthma. she's such a attention seeker. i still remember, during our camp, she walked past me, i looked at her. she just looked away. imagine that.. how rude. she asked us, "are you guys photogenic?" i'm like.. who are you asking? you should ask that question yourself. look how many photos did you have in your friendster? goodness.


forgotten to bring my cca tee today. how dumb.


guides was fun though.. we keep picking and plucking the grasses & twigs & sticks & keep throwing at wankee & chengyi. dunno what happened, wankee & chengyi took off their shoes & wanted to throw at my sister. i said, "dont take out your shoes lah! later all the birds all fall down to the ground." that means the birds will die after smelling the stench. my sister objected, she said elephants will drop down. i said, "NO! not any normal elephants! its DUMBO!" just a disney character. ahhhh. thats lame.


something happened during our games. i was suppose to catch the ball, we were playing caption's ball. i hit the ball to my sister. instead, i think the ball went haywire, and it hit HER* right in her head. i apologized, she diao me. i'm mad! those sec 5 guides came. we talked bout HER*. one of them told me that she cant stand the sight of her. simply just agreed. their clique said that i can compare with huizhen. cos both our laughter almost seems alike. we laughed out loud, talk real loud. finally! found someone who loves to laugh like me! i've never laughed out loud until today. my seniors rock!


sometimes, i want to be sequestered for awhile. i need some time alone.. to refresh what i've done, all the bad memories i have. i'm leading a miserable life i must say..


its the end, no more turning back..

i felt so ashamed.
i felt so lost.
i felt so embarassed.
i felt so unwanted.
i felt so unappreciated.
i felt so dumb.

i hate myself.
i wish i never exisited.


i could just dig a hole & bury my head in it.


i'm so depressed..

thinking day's TODAY!!

instead of celebrating it at the parade square, we had it in the hall. goodness.. i was at the most corner side. i looked up at the gallery. i saw linda & sammi pointing to me! & laughing. wow.. from afar.. they CAN see me. no comments..


it seems that everybody was practically playing with my 2 ponytails!! so embarassing!!


i dont think chinese lessons will do me any good. the teacher doesnt teach us anything. all she does is nag nag nag, scold scold scold. such a waste of time. i prefer ong han guan!


saw him during recess!! he was behind me. i should say, behind behind. he smiled at me! & after that, he was somehow beside me. i plucked up my courage. i said, "HELLOOO!!" his reply? "HI! HI! HI!" if i'm not wrong. hohoho! i coulnt stop smiling nor laugh. he's so cute when he's eating.
hahahahaha!


after recess, we decided to play a trick on puifun. she had taken some cookies to school today. i took her cookies away when she's not looking. & i passed it to sammi & jie. they hid it. puifun would NEVER suspect them of stealing. instead, she went to the boys side when she found out that her cookies was gone. then, 1 shocking thing happened! i saw her tears starting to flow! shocked, i signaled to them, telling them to give her back her cookies. i would never had expected her to cry. I PASSED MY CHEMISTRY!!
WOOOOO~
i'm sosososo glad! although i almost failed..


played truth or dare after remedial. sammi chose truth. we've decided to ask kalis to ask sammi a qus. guess wad he asked? "how many bras do you have?" i'm like.. GOSH! did he just say that? all of us roared with laughter. so did i. & someone asked puifun what type of pads does she use.
disgusted?
LOL!


saw him outside his class.
hohoho =)


BTW!
THNKS YILIAN FOR THE FIR CD!
tyty! =D


maybe, its a new beginning. (:

tmr's thinking day. and we're changed places with the sec 2s.
now, we're standing at the left side of the parade square. & i'm at the corner! wooo~ i'm standing at the back! YAYS! no need to feel ashamed anymore. used to stand at the front when i was in sec 2.. gosh.


i was really in a FOUL mood when talking to her. cant believe pali went to tell HER* we're going down for recess. we could have gone off w/o her. i hate her!


he's taking a sling bag! just like me! so cute!
WOOHOO!


i love MCR!
i love FIR!

seriously.. why am i overjoying at every single thing?

I LOVE BEING CHEEFUL (:

dad, you have been scolding and yelling at me ever since yesterday. i just wanted to take some papers for my maths, yet you scolded and said i was stupid & dumb. you said i was a useless bumhead. & that i couldnt do any simple things right.
FINE! then tell me, whats right whats wrong?

i knew i'm poor & lousy in maths. you think i want my maths to be lousy? i used to get 20/100 for my primary school maths. but i did pass my psle maths didnt i? & now? for secondary 1 & 2, i got A1 didnt i? you din appreciate that either. only mum did.. she even gave me something for my results. you just gave me a hell lot of scoldings.

what was your comment to me after my psle results?
"what the hell?! NA?! did any of my family members get into the NA stream?!"
those shocking coments of yours. did you ever consider how those NA pupils felt whenever people critisise them?


i asked you bout some computer stuffs. you told me to on the computer to show you. in the end, you told me whats wrong of it. and you scolded me stupid for as i on the computer.
god damn it, it was you who told me to on the computer.

get the fucking facts right before telling me that what i'm doing is wrong.

suddenly, i felt like spilling every single thing in my blog. something's wrong with me..


my computer modem broke down. cant use the computer yesterday. why cant it break down at some other time? why must it be now?
I'M SO GOD DAMN MAD!!!


yesterday.. went to jp with ALIBABA. we went to watch "49 days"!! yep! i sat at the center. i now realise.. everytime i watch a horror movie with my pals, i'm always sitting at the center. and i held pf's hand close to me. so that everytime a horror part comes, i'll hold pf's hand to hide the image away. heh heh heh.. overall, the movie is okay i guess. i almost cried at a part. so touching!


had girl guides thinking day today. i kept switching places. dunno why.. mostly did some singings. yeah.. OH YAH! one REAL funny thing happened which neither miss kokila nor i couldnt stop blabbering about.

theres this particular school which i'm not going to name. their school won the bronze pna award. when their school was called, they were cheering. and i tell you. they are girls. and when they start to open their mouths, OH MY GOSH!! it sounded like a bunch of guys's voices.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! i think my stomach is going to burst any moment now.. and miss kokila keep reminding me bout the school's cheer. *laughs*


you guys are treating me coldly during the thinking day. i didnt want to say anything actually, but yes. YOU*, you're the bestest girl i've ever known. you even knew that i wasnt in a good mood and you came to my aid. you rock. you and only you.

& i'm beginning to hate her even through she used to hang out with HER*. stop getting on my nerves will you?


& whats the matter with my family?! everytime i start to watch tv, you guys start to talk. my grandma talks to herself and real loud. my dad & mum cant stop blabbering, screaming, yelling each other's head off. my brother cant stop playing his cars and making that awful noise.. i felt so pathetic. cant i just watch tv in peace? and you people would make noise everytime i do something that you guys abhores. telling me to study study..
please.
cant i just have some peace at home? i prefer staying in school than coming into this chaotic house. at least, i have someone who really understands me. other than those people in this house who dont listen to me.
whenever i start to talk to you guys bout how i felt in certain kind of things.
you people just wont get me..


cant believe you are ticking people off & say people FAT. god damn it, she was once your best friend. what the fuck happened now? maybe you just couldnt stop poking your nose & spitting nonsense that did NOT even exist. yes, it proves that you HATE FAT people. saying people FAT. i saw the testimonal that your friend gave you.. cant believe that a pair of good friends might become a HUGE disaster. seriously.. i cant believe it on my own either..


NO! it was NOT E who nudged HIM! it was actually A!! OH MY GOD!! cant believe it.. he must have told them!! he must have! no doubt bout that (:


your mesmerizing smile.. i wish i could see it everyday.
i wish i could talk to you.
seriously. i do (:


i wanna feel how it's like to be loved

i hate maths periods. and the best thing is.. everyday, theres 11 periods of maths. including of A and E maths. had to check the maths file today.. i was so fricking stressd up. so tired.. i wanted to take a break after maths lesson. din know i fell alsleep.. and no one woke me up! luckily it was the last period.. so, no harm done (:


during combined hum lessons today.. its like.. almost more den 90% of the class had 1/15 for the SEQ. of cos! i got 1 mark for that test. 3/6 and 3/7 were v v noisy. mrs leong told us to go to the parade square and was going to have our lessons there. most of them find it stupid and a waste of time. but i find it pretty cool to have our lessons at the parade square!


after school, i accompanied yilian & puifun to a shop. they wanted to buy something, dont wanna be left alone. so, accompanied them. i'm glad i did follow them. they went in to pay for their stuffs. i was looking at yilian's physics answers outside the shop. i looked up, OH MY GOSH! he was like.. there!! there's 2 guys with him. lets call them.. A and E. E was standing next to him if i'm not wrong. and one shocking thing is.. E nudged him!! i'm like.. god! does he know that i like him or something like that? he was smiling.. my brain's wires were like.. telling me to smile back. so i did!
GOSHGOSHGOSH! XD


i regret going to school today. i'm not feeling well and i kept coughing throughout the whole day. thanks lin! thanks for the sore throat medicine! appreciate it.


jessie nggggg rocks my socks! heh heh.. surprised to see your name here eh?
bahahahaha!


i'm glad. i cant be even more glad than glad. i'm super duper glad that you did smiled at me!
that really cheered & brighten up my day. (:

total defence day today.. had to wake up at 0530. ahhh! lack of sleep.. i could have slept for 1 more hr.. 1 hr makes a difference k?


commonwealth girl guides had won the GOLD pna award!! -cheers loudly- mrs teo called for all the guides no stand up. no one did.. i guess everyone's too embarassed.. including me. i saw no one standing up. so.. i din stand up. LOL!


thanks people for those valentine's day gifts! i still rmb ytd.. at bout 2+.. i went into the classroom.. assafiy was there. i went to check my hp. i started screaming. poor assafiy.. he had to endure my loudness. =)


miss lim gave us 2 class tee designs. the whole class chose yilian's! i must agree.. its v v nice! i wanted it to be purple. but no one wants. so.. no choice.


i think i'm coming down with a sore throat.. so sickening!! i feel so terrible.. so horrible.. so vegetable.
HAHAHAHAHA! but one thing's for sure!
i'm still v v hyper. (:


yays! i've put chinese songs in my blog! wow.. surprising.. xD


had fnn today.. received back our test papers. 7 passes.. 11 failures. i crossed my fingers.. i sure hope i dont fail! in the end.. i got the 5th position. first was kenneth!! so envy!! but! i did pass! i failed my first test.. but i passed now! yays~


after school went to e red-table with yilian, puifun, jie and olivia! we talked and talked and talked.. talked until we talked about collecting cans to sell them at a v low price. saw 2 old ladies sitting beside us. olivia and i went to give them. they thanked us.. i felt a gush of warmth. i wonder when was the last time i did a good deed. i wonder.. if i grow old, will i be like that? will i be able to pass my O lvls? i'm sure to get into an ITE for sure! no doubt bout that.


him, him and him.. i saw him everyday.. but he dont even notice me anymore. we used to at least greet each other, or even just a smile. how i missed those times.. i used to laugh secretly everytime you said hi to me for smiled.. i wanna turn back time.


"Another day goes by, will never know just wonder why, you made me feel good, made me smile. i see it now and i can say its gone, that would be a lie, cannot control this. this thing called love"

i'm depressed. i'm in despair.. i'm on the verge of breaking down!


sighs.. have not talked to him for a long time..

she's getting on my nerves. & i'm still wondering what she have told me..
was it true?

tsk tsk tsk..


i hate those stuffs that varnish woods or some other things. the whole house is stinky! filled with that stench.
eeee!

go to 3/6, and look at the table which is the most eye-catching.

"MCR!" and "JOYCE =]" i scotchtaped it and den wrote what i want to write on the tape. clever ain it? =)


she's such a flirt.

goodness me.

its been a long time, everything is changing, so many things have happened.. and i'm gonna spill out everything out in my blog.


i'm abit upset over the whole "him" thing. i almost cried whenever i thought about it. i cant really rmb it now.. but yeah. signs of hopelessness..


i'm practically sleeping when i'm walking. have to tell pf to hold me when i'm walking cos i was closing my eyes. i'm god damn deprived of sleep! had fnn today.. and we're supposed to have practical today. but he din come on wed's lesson. so had theory lessons today. my sitting position on the chair was like sitting on the floor. den, faizal was talking craps. closing my eyes. closing.. closing. i almost fell off the chair. v v boring.. i want practicals!!


my sec 3 life so far has been really really saddening. i'm almost so stressed out everyday. like today.. i have to rush to lessons all day. on monday, have to rush ard the class as we have to pack our maths file. we were late for ss lessons for about 16mins. had to run downstairs to buy the english file.. and have to run upstairs. during recess.. was having so much fun until i forgot i was almost late for fnn lessons! ran upstairs. wad a "rushy" day..

sorry puifun, jez, sam, fazly, haqim and guohao! i wasnt feeling myself during ss period. sorry for flaring up.. sorry for not replying you guys.. sorry for as i was showing my dull face.. sorry peeps! (:


sometimes i wonder.. are they being fair to me? i seemed to be the only cheery one, smiling and laughing. some people showed me the black face. but i still tried my best to make myself smile dont i? i tried my best.. but did you guys do the same thing as me? i seriously do wish you guys would do the same thing as me.. cos its not fair to me. i do love you guys loads. and i want to cherish everything i have now.. i dont wanna feel regretful anymore..


total defence rehersal was v v fun! i've sprained my leg and my arm. and the best thing is.. i've got to carry yilian. so everytime when my part comes, i've got to suffer.. *ouch* .. i love playing with the poles! poking people with it. hahaha!


i'm not suppose to say it but.. i'm not naming anyone!! =) okay. she told me.. that that guy wants to know bs' oh so beautiful name. my first reaction was like.. wtf? that guy was like.. in a relationship?! have he got a stem in between his eyes? i wrote, mother fucker in the convo.. ahhh! so disgusting! she scolded him. yeah.. but.. wad harm can he do? seriously, if that guy breaks up with the girl he's with now, and steads with bs, i'm gonna kill both the guy and the girl.


i din know so many people hates her. i was sitting near her. i couldnt stand it.. so i knock the chair off and walked off.
she was like.. acting so sickening cute, i couldnt stand it. went over to sp and her classmate's spot. i told dem wad happened. they just simply agreed with me! i never thought that she could have to many "supporters".


syya! eoesomn ysa htt im kolr dse.. huip? HAHAHAHAHA!!


i think he's giving me the cold shoulder. =(


everything's messed up.

Weee~!!! Jus finished my reunion dinner liaoz...yum yum!!! =)



Happie new yr ppl!!! Wee~!!! *grinz* e dinner was great!!! My family n me ate it at e balcony there, instead at e dining rm, lolx...quite special...first time in my whole life ate at e balcony there...lolx...those ppl stayin near us can c us lehz...lolx... =)



Saw sam's blog jus nw, agree 2 wad she saes in e post~!!! Totally agree sammi!!! =D ...she sooo action, go copy ppl wear contacr lenses...sum of our klass e gers sooo bitchy...haiz...sumtimes i realli hate my klass ppl, esp those bois...dey soooo pervertic 1...eeeww!!! Den sum gers keep flirting wif e teachers lor!!! Wanna be e teacher's pet mah...THICK-SKINNED!!!!!!



Hahaha...i gtg downstairs wif my family le!!! Later cum hm den update sumore!! Weee~!!! Bubyez ppl!!! Happie new yr!!!! =D

monday was super! yeah~ had our CME prokect skit. it went really really PERFECT!! my sister, yilian and the rest of the "extras" were at the backstage. we were the last class to perform. after the 2nd last class, it was 3/6's turn! i was really really really nervous and at the same time, quite happy. den, here comes our part. we had to run to the "durian seller" and den waited for them to buy. and den we shouted, "oi! faster lah" i was practically laughing onstage. mrs terrance said it was very very nice. other teachers said it was very funny and entertaining too! YAYS! i love 3/6! (:


after assembly, we walked down to the canteen. saw him on the way. gosh!! i was looking at him, he was looking at my direction. kept looking and looking, and, whe he's behind me, he suddenly said in a loud voice, "HI!!" ahahaha! gave me a shock. laughed non-stop.


today was quite okay bah. had the wear full guides U. our thinking day was on the 22nd of feb. ahhh! scary. wankee told me that she knows that he knows that i'm me!! confusing ain it? LOL! but wankee just wouldnt tell me wad she and him talked about! ahhh!! wankee! i'm gonna force you to say it! muahaha!


i love alibaba! and that's the truth!
i love pali, i love sali, i love gali!

muacks! =)


i want to talk to you, not only just a hi.

after much consideration and thinking on what happened on friday, i feel so foolish for not cherishing what i had. ahh! why why why?! i'm so dumb to let the chance slip by. blame it all on my stupidity.. blame it all on my cheeriness. i'm such a fool, a jerk. how stupid can i get?


left so much maths qus.. die die die. i'm lagging in maths. somebody! help me!!


oh so cute. (:

i'm touched. seriously i am. he told me, i'm never an extra to him.. aww. sweet (:
does he even knows that i like him?
i still rmb ytd, when we had our rehersal. i dint know he's gonna be there. but yes, yes indeed, he was there.. oh so adorable! =)


i'll like to comment on "mei nu's" attitude ytd. she's such a bitch who cant stop showing off her beautiful legs to all the guys in the uniform grps. and she'll lie on the floor, and pretend to sleep, as if she's sleeping beauty, waiting for her prince charming to kiss her to wake her up. -disgusted- she betrays her friends, use guys. goodness.. now, she got the part that the 6 of us wanted. actually, we, the diveters wanted to take that part, she wanted and insisted that she will do a better job. well, she got it, she got the part. and we dont. are you happy now?


sorry clara! cant watch the movie today with the c. gang. sorry! my hmwk load is multiplying itself. -sighs- i'm stressed out!


mummy and daddy are coming home today! i wonder wad mummy bought for me.. teeheehee. xD


i'm feeling high and hyper today.. so, i've decided the post some photos of the greatest band ever!! ahahahaha!!

gerard looks dead. (: (vocals)

mikey's so cute!! (bass)

he looks depressed. LOL (guitar)

tatoos all ard him! (guitar)

HAHAHAHA! BOB! (drums)

from left to right.

bob bryar, mikey way, gerard way, ray toro and frank iero!!

AHHH!! I LOVE MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE !!!

the more i talk to you, the more i'm falling more deeply into you.

this is the happiest day of my life!


haven use this sentence for ages.. i'm hyper and overjoyed!


i'm stressed out. i cant take it anymore.. both my A and E maths are getting from bad to worse. drop them? i'll think about it.. (:


had history test today. that fucking bastard firdaus was sitting next to me. i intended to copy joelle's work, but, think about it!! i'll get caught.. and, i'll never learn anything. while doing the wkshts, he kept copying my work. endured the anger.. and during the test, from my side view, i can see him turning his head and looking at my work!! outrageous ain it? wanted to punch his head and turn his head ard. argh.. i'm so mad!!


cca was fun! played caption's ball. huishin keep blocking me!! gosh.. had a great time! had the total defence skit rehersal today. shiping, adeline, jie, puifun, yilian and me were the people who direct people off the "bomb" area. pretty funny huh? LOL. he was there!!! AHHH!!


looked at him. gosh.. he's so kuku! so cute!! so sotong!! goodness.. got a break. joan was like.. "joyce! lai lai! come i intro.." saw that he WAS there!! okok. i was v v shy at that time.. went to hide my face.. something like that.. noticed something.. he was also shy at that time!! ahahaha!! he said hi.. yea~ waved back.. ahh! seriously.. i cant stop smiling.. my face like.. some sort of.. went red.. =/


shiping and i decided to partner each other for the skit thinggy! we're taking the left side if i'm not wrong. we were like that most unluckiest among the rest of the 2 pairs. we had to stay under the sun for a v v long period. we're becoming chao da. i'm envy!! jessie was sitting next to him! -screams- they did turned at our direction for a few times. jessie told me that she asked him about me. -double screams- i wont say what she told me here.. pardon me. i'm freaked out.. =)


went to watch " i not stupid too " today with yilian, jie and adeline after guides today. had a hard time deciding where to watch it. went to jurong entertainment in the end.

the show was indeed fab!! i cried 5 times in the show.. very touching. i give the show.. 9 out of 10 stars! =D


and!! we've received news that girl guides have won the GOLD PNA AWARD!! ahhh!! *claps* we screamed when we heard the news. yays! guides won the gold award!!


i wanted to sms him. but.. should i? i'm confused.. again..


i've never been so hyper and cheerful in ages. (:

i'm touched by what some people wrote in their posts. they have a sense of willingness to let people know their moods, make people feel touched and contented. now that's what i call, great bloggers. (:


yes.. some people find her very annoying. but, overall, according to some people, she's just bossy at times.. yeah. BUT I STILL FIND HER ANNOYING! hate me cause i hate her. i dont care anymore.. jez told me SHE* told everyone that she started the thing which i started. PLEASE LAH.. have a sense of originality. what nonsense..


he said hi to me!! -SCREAMS-
i'm overjoyed!!


i wonder whats mum and dad doing now? i'm starting to miss those times when they were nagging at me, esp my mum, ticking me off cause my chinese was terrible. my dad would be poking his nose into my E. and A. maths.. and i'll be like.. aiyo, i know how to do lah. some sort like that.


i think i'm gonna flunk my chinese exams or tests.. that tweety bird's teaching is seriously in need of help. had spelling. i copied pf's. i looked up, she's staring into my eyes. scary.. and i went to put the chemistry wkshts into irene's shelf, i saw tweety bird again.. and she's giving me that same creepy look again!! she's getting me to the principal sooner or later.. -sighs-


have 3/6 no respect for their chemistry rep? told them to hand in their wkshts, they dont. in the end, all of them dumped the wkshts to me after irene ticked them off. cant they see i have no hands to carry them? today, wrote on the board to hand the wkshts to me, screamed at them to hand it to me and i'll hand them in. no one did.. instead, she scolded me, telling me to shut up. god.. bad attitudes. had to go to each of them to ask them whether they handed in anot. their annoyed faces.. gosh.


okay. have to pia through history.. haven even touched my fnn hmwk..
-kills myself-


you dont have to act you know?

pali !! sali !! gali !! and last but not least.. jali !! if you people are wondering what i'm saying.. it goes like this.. alibaba! our clan.. pf, sam, jie and me! i started calling us like that during english period. or maths period.. cant rmb. i took the first 3 words, alibaba to ali. and put our first letter from each of our names to ali. so.. yeah! pali, sali, gali and jali!! seriously.. i can be that lame.


got 18 for english common test! i was the last to take back the paper. and guess wad? gali for 16, sali got 17, i got 18 and pali got 19!! fated ain it? thats what i thought :D


during fnn.. i was really really sleepy. den faizal said, those who are sleepy, pls go and wash ur face. no one did. i started yawning.. he said, "joyce! go and wash ur face!" washed. i went back to my seat.. i feel a sudden urge to yawn again, not knowing he was watching me. he saw me yawn again.. he said,"wah! joyce arh.. wash ur face ardy still tired." gosh..


i think kerk's weird but at the same time, he's funny. i offered to give him a mentos green apple sweet today. he accepted! den we all, "all hor" him. he just chuckled and walked off.. he's funny.


mummy and daddy are going overseas tmr! and that means.. FREEDOM!! yays!! and mummy and daddy, yi lun shun fong! may your trip be enjoyable!


i've not seen you for a long period of time.
i miss you alot..

i found myself, not sleeping at the right time. on friday, i slept at 3+, after smsing him. on sat, i slept at 4am. ytd, slept at 5+. i'm seriously deprived of sleep. no wonder everytime i go to my relatives's house, i'll start yawning and start slping on the couch or sofa. gosh.. i really have no manners.


on sat, went to my dad's side. their house was like.. SUPER HUGE! kept running ard the house. and i kept playing with their guinea pig!! HAHAHAHA!! my cousins introduced me to j-pop. she let me see some videos. i love ayumi hamasaki! her video, "step you" really rocks! and she let me see some of her fave jap singers. she showed me a band foto. i tot it was an all-girls band. the fact is, they were all boys! all of them were wearing skirts. gosh.. and i simply love the face that they pierce their eyebrows, nose and their lips! i wanna pierce my lips too!! HAHAHA! and be gothic! -cheers- and..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST COUSIN KUN HAN! =D


today was my 1 year old cousin's birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED AND CUTEST COUSIN SZE XUEN!! =))


going to the movies with some people. i dont even know who's going.. and i sure DONT expect her to go. or else, i'll go to some other place. (:


seriously, joelle reminds of me of me! joelle! he loves you! dont let him go!! xD


my intentions were good.

Weee~came 2 update liaoz... *grinz* ... 2dae hor...my parents bring us out to bukit timah there, den tt time we went 2 eat lunch cuz its afternoon mah...den my mum go order drinks mah, den later gt a old man came 2 giv us...but tt time my mum went awae so my dad doesnt noe tt e old man was goin 2 giv us e drinks, so wen he came, tt told man duno tt we r her family, den my dad sae tt he nv order, so he went awae...den he walk until our front front, den he stared back...den my dad oso stared back, den dey shouted n wanted 2 fight lyk tt, den dey shout shout shout, den alot of ppl turned ard n looked, den i veri veri veri angry mah...so i started 2 cry...haiz...i dun lyk my parents 2 fight...haiz...den i dun feel lyk eatin, so nv eat....den later my mood swings~change 2 happie liao le lor...den my sis go pierce her first earholes(its her first time mah) den she go choose e earrings, den go pierce...but my mum lor, dun let me pierce e second hole...haiz....haha, nvm, i nxt time go pierce myself~ =D den my sis look abit weird wif earrings...hehex...


Haiz...y he until nw havent cum online??Waitin n waitin...waitin 4 u 2 cum online...missin u dae n nite...wanted 2 tell u tt i lyk u, but i dun dare, haiz...

everybody's changing.
even i did notice the change in most of the people i knew.
but 1 thing's for sure!
i sure do love them alot!
PUIFUN! SAMANTHA! JIE(GRACE)!

they're the people that's always there for me. i treat them as my ALIBABA. it's some sort of a clan. =) they are the people whom i can trust, whom i can share my secrets with. unlike some people whom i do not want to mention. incorrigible, terrible, vegetable! AHAHAHAHAHA!! -shakes head- we even sit near each other.

they rock my world! love ya guys loads! XD


i wonder. why do i always laugh at little little things? and i laugh real loud. i always seems to be laughing at every single minute. sometimes, i do laugh even if i fall down. -.-"


i wanna travel through time, making my happiest moments last forever. i love you :D

HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE EVERYONE!


i'm gonna die of happiness sooner or later. he's always falling alsleep when he's smsing. aiyo.. so cute right? ahahaha!! i asked him when was his bday. instead, he replied, " yours is the the 27 of nov right?" GOSH! he knows!!! i wonder how he got hold of the date. pretty suspicious. wahahaha!! and! i know his! i'm a psychic and i can predict the future. (:


that sickening SHE* is seriously asking for trouble. she's like practically seeking attention from EVERYBODY! now, she even wants attention from the art teacher. i dint about it cuz i wasnt taking art. alibaba told me. that art teacher wants to see my sister after school. den SHE, wants to accompany my sister. my sister has no comments on that. and everytime the teacher speaks, she really MUST comment on whatever she says. pretty annoying ain it? and on fri, while we were at the canteen, she came and showed up infront of us. as she can see with her big eyes, the table was practically full alrdy. it was filled wif sam, pf, jie, assafiy, oli and me. the round table can hold like.. 6 people? unless you really squeeze in. we din want to squeeze. den she came and wanted to sit with us. everyone's reaction was like.. "what? are you really sitting here?" god. seriously.. she's the one who doesnt want to hang out with us, and now, everytime she doesnt have anyone to hang out, she'll come and find us. sickening isnt it? please.. that pathetic look.. goodness. i hate attention seekers. tsk tsk tsk..


i've come to a judgement that, in my family, i'm the only who was hardworking and always doing everything for them. my dad always calls me to take things for him. my mum always tells me to do things for her or she will tick me off. and my sister, esp her. shes the lazy one. i'm the obedient one in the family. -pats on back- (:


we've nicknamed each other.
he's ultra boy!
i'm hyper girl!

xD


i love ultra boy! =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE EVE PEOPLE!


GOSH GOSH GOSH! a week have passed SO fast. i wish this week could be the next week. i still rmb i've been very very hyper on monday.. actually, its everyday. TEEHEEHEEEE~ overall.. this whole week ROCKS!!


cant believe i woke up late this morning.. god. sry pf!! sry for laggin you. today is the first day of the year when i woke up late.. tsk tsk tsk. i failed my E. maths test though.. left 1 more mark to pass. haiz.. den mdm chang still ask me, "why your sister can pass yet you cannot?" duh?! SHE COPIED YILIAN'S WORK!! aiyo.. having a retest on thurs. good luck to me! =D


had fnn practical today!! YIPEES! ahahaha! had to cook fried egg noodles. but, i dont see any eggs on the ingredients.. =/ hate having to move ard from our table to the stove at the other far end. kenneth and i had to go a LONG LONG way to joelle and guohao's table. =.=" had to rush and rush. almost burnt my hand.. gosh. after everything.. i immediately went to throw the rubbish in the bin. den, faizal said, everyone! i dont want you all to throw ur rubbish until everyone of you had said greeted me goodbye. i was like.. GOD! i threw it already!! den faizal looked and me and said, "except for joyce! who has already thrown hers." everyone started laughing.. i dont see the reason to laugh.. joined in the laughing though.. HAHAHAHA! practical was WAY WAY WAY "FUNNER" den sec 1 and 2.


went to red table after school. naidu, yilian, sammi, pf, jie, oli, gl and jo was there with me. we started saying riddles and jokes among ourselves. okok! here's one which made them laugh their stomachs out. ahahaha! here goes!

a black man was walking in the desert. he was about to die when the god gave him 3 wishes before he die.
1st wish: he wanted to be white
2nd wish: he wanted to drink LOADS of water.
3rd wish: he wanted to see woman's butt everyday.
then, he died. guess wad he became after he died?
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A TOILET BOWL!!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!


we've taken our peer leader's t-shirt!! quite nice. (:


pf, jie and i were hailing a taxi for sammi, den, yilian called me. she told me that he WAS at the bus-stop! walked there. GOSH! he's really there!! GOODNESS.. waved to him. but i think he thought that i was waving to yl. so cute!! ahahahaha!! and.. guess wad? he smsed me!! HAHAHAHA!!! okok. i'm over-reacting again. he said i was shy.. ahahahaha! am i? i guess.. and he told me to talk to him nxt time when i see him again! WEETS! cant wait~ wahahahahaha!! seriously.. i'll really really die of happiness if i went to talk to him or he went to talk to me. i'm gonna scream my lungs out. ahahahaha!


btw.. IN EXACTLY 10 MONTHS..
ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!
=DD


think i've written ALOT ALOT ALOT already. stop here for now! ahahaha! happy chinese new year people!!

^______________^


cant wait. cant do nothing. all i can do is just to see your pretty face once again.
i miss you alot..

3 days in a row! =D


E. maths test so much much much more easier than the common test. sweet~ i failed my fnn test! shucks..


SAM TOOK MY FNN HMWK HOME! god..

SAMMI! if you're reading this right now.. rmb to bring my mindmap to school tmr!! or.. put my mindmap in ur bag NOW!! i'll be skinned alive by faizal if its not handed up to him by tmr.

thanks loads! =)


i was walking wif alibaba to mac. he was infront of me! HE SMILED AT ME! WHEE! den. went to fnn remedial wif jamiatul. walked.. almost reaching the gate. he was somehow somewhat behind me. i turned ard when i was in the school. he said hi to me! HAHAHAHAHAHA!! he's so cute! and he told me he read my every post. die~ i wonder if he knows that i like him. =/


looking at your picture..

gosh.. i cant believe he read all my posts!! goodness.

and! he even remembered my url! wheee~ ahahaha!
i'm turning in.

cya!

:D

one of them told me he said he doesnt know me. then another she told me that he doesnt know me. seriously, i have no idea wads going on.


went upstairs after recess. found out that he was walking INFRONT of me. gosh.. suddenly. he and his friend stopped walking. they turned back. he saw me. he said, "HI!" and waved. OH MY GOSH! my heart like stopped beating. i could have died on the spot.. hahaha! waved back. and smiled! ROFL!


i'm real confused.. does he know that i'm joyce? dilemma! haiyo..


i think she doesnt like the idea of i liking him. i'm guessing that she must have liked him too.


i hate fnn's theory!! i'm practically yawning through the whole lesson.. luckily i was sitting in the back. i want practical!! having fnn on friday! plus practical! YAYS! =D


i'll give, all the love in the world. =)

i'm guessing everyone knows who's R. yep! i'm cheery this past 2 days! YIPEE~


monday..
he went into 3/6!! and! i hid behind shakila. too paiseh le.. LOL. den! after common test.. i went outside to take my books back in the class. i looked to my left, -screams- he was looking at me! plus! he was smiling.. HAHAHAHA!! i think i smiled back too. my happy day~ =)


today!
had cca. now i know.. so many people hate "mei nu". tsk tsk.. shes NOT going to be the CL! hahahaha! even chengyi disagrees that shes a good person. den! i was at the slope there. i looked at the gate.. i saw him! den shiping shouted, "QY!" den he turned. i waved to him. he waved back! i sceamed. ROFL! at the canteen. i was throwing something. he walked past me. i said, "HELLO!!" and smiled at him. his reply. "HI!" smiled back at me too! GOSH!


I'M THE HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD! =D


so toot! so cute! yuan yuan is soo kuku! =)

this is a message to my friend. lets call her, R.


R:
we were very close together with the rest of the ane's during our secondary 2 lives dont we? i mean.. we did get into the same sec 3 class. and we are like.. drifting apart.. you told me that we will go home together with the ane's. i did wait for you after school. but you, you left without telling me a word. i went with the ane's to mac. i saw you. you were with your cca friends. after you have been a councillor, i guess that some things must have changed, alot.. and during the lvl camp. i walked past you. you looked at me, i wanted to wave to you, instead, you looked at me, and turned away. seriously, it didnt happen once, it happened alot of times. you told me to wait for you every period before recess. but you went off, without noticing the ane's. i tried calling out to you. you din turn back. sometimes i get the feeling that once you have new friends, you throw your old friends down into the dump. you din care about what we felt no more. you're just using us. i'm truly disappointed.

you dont have to read this R.


him! him and him! xD

back from the sec 3 level camp! wheee~


had the kayaking first. but it was low tide, so we did rafting. i thought it was boring in the first place, indeed it was. had to build it by ourselves. a lizard appeared out of nowhere.. -screams- build build build.. an hour passed. our raft was not the best looking among the other 3 groups. but, what matters was in the inside right? carried it to the sea. once it was placed in the sea, the competition started. 2 of the rafts had broken up into pieces. -chuckles- our group and 1 group continued. i went on the second time. we had to go on a relay. which was to go 3 times.. yes~ that lady in a boat keep telling the rest of the 4 people, "follow that girl! follow that girl! she's doing it correctly! follow her follow her!!" HAHAHAHAHAHA!! we won!!! -singing the 3 cheers-


had the team building games after lunch. my shoes were soaking wet with sea water plus loads of sand. den while walter lim was talking to us about some teamwork stuffs, i was calling puifun, "puifun puifun! look at my shoes! can make water leh!" i squeezed my shoes, water came out. den walter lim said, "aiyo! that girl arh. dont make your shoes lah.. very disgusting leh, -laughs-" he was kidding though.. funny t'cher. =)


i hate that tent!! its full of some stinking god damn mud!! eewww!! and! its full of some disgusting sandflies and MOSQUITOES!!! AHHHHH!! sandflies.. what are they? flies that are made out of sand? -.-"


woke up the next morning, my legs were filled with those irratating mosquitoes bites!!! wanted to place the photos here.. but, nahz.. i've changed my mind. its gross. cant really stop those itch. and those sickening sandflies bit me!!! -kills them-


had high element games the next day. we din get to try the first one. some other group came. curse them.. i was sitting there. infront of the second game. then that guy suddenly pointed to me, telling me to go over. went over. OH MY FRICKING GOD! its so damn high up and it was so difficult to climb up!! and a guy from the other side pulled up me up. everything was fun! except we din get to try the flying fox.


next was the low element games. theres an event that i'll like to elaborate on. while we were playing the spiderweb thinggy, i suddenly broke down and started crying. i just couldnt help but stop tears from flowing. cant believe i cried.. sheesh! i'm sensitive though.. the reason is, someone said something about her own body mass. then, i denied it. some other people pointed to me. i was mad though.. but at the same time, i was hurt by her words. then, i broke down. seriously, try being in my shoes for awhile. seriously you wont even like one single bit.

sangeetha cheered me up. she knew how it was like being someone like me. she's like the only one who can really understand how i feel. ^^


well, i felt much better the next day. (:
overall, the camp was really really fun!!
our group, GROUP 9 WON THE BEST GROUP!
SECOND PLACE! *claps*


i went home, on my handphone. GOSH!! I CANT BELIEVE MY EYES!
BLUR BOY SENT ME 2 SMSES!!! -SCREAMING-
okok!! he's like the most charming boy i've ever seen!
i really regret not bring my handphone to the camp. he even knew i was at the camp!! ahaha! oh yah.. the whole sch was camping. =.="


I LOVE YUAN YUAN!
=DD

yes.. i've cut my hair!! -sobs- now it looks very very short. actually.. not very short.. -.-"


during physics, we used the vernier caliper. den got that poking thing at the back of that vernier caliper.. den my sis wanted to poke kerk's butt. AHAHAHA!! kerk's funny though..


i waited from 1630 to 1700+, and shiping cant din show up!! -mad- have to go up to her class..

and and!!
I SAW YUAN YUAN! WEETS!! he's sweeping the floor. i guess he's in detention. oh yah.. he is in detention.. =/ he's so cute!! gosh!
-falls deeply in love-


yep! tmr shiping and i are going to be the "ex-cos" for that training. abit nervous though.. we have so many things to do tmr! cant wait!


BTW! thnks ass! AHAHAHAHA!!
=))


i love yuan yuan.
:D

cca open house was quite fun! although some people declined to even take a look inside. and they dont even want to take my flyers or something. some sec 1s have attitude problems.. tsk tsk tsk..


when i was coming down the stairs.. omg! guess who i saw? weeee~ i saw blur boy! AHAHAHAHAHA!! smiled at him though.. =D


i love my yuan yuan. (:

the 11th floor residents are
DRIVING ME NUTS!

all those construction sounds, knocking sounds.. blah blah blah.. you name it!!

cant take it anymore..

i miss him. i love him.


FRIDAY THE 13TH!!
i had some bad luck though..


wankee almost fainted once she knew that blur boy was in her class. tsk tsk.. slow reaction sia.. LOL. =D


cca open hse tmr. full guides uni!! AHHHH!!! and no pony tails. die die die..


i found you.

HOW I HATE THAT FUCKING BITCH STANDING AT THE SCHOOL'S BOOKSHOP!!


i was ordering the chemistry files, den that pig wants to torture me. keep asking me to count those coins a thousand million times. fucking asshole.. cant help shouting every single words into her deaf ears. get fired as soon as possible, get a real life. (:


and oon yu and raj!!
WATCH OUT. you people dont pay me for any chemistry things the next time, you're gonna die.


puifun, sammi, my sis and me named our chemistry grp..
ALIBABA!
ahahaha. actually it was some other name.. but i was laughing like siao. so, changed it. now, our wonderful work was being pasted on the wall next to puifun and i. *admires*


BLUR BOY!
I MISS YOU SO MUCH!
=)


yes of cause its not worth it. what are you? blind? craps..

tweety bird's lesson was so god damn funny! the 4 of us laughed real hard. i couldnt control myself. sam wrote on jie's bk, saying, "look at tweety bird's eyebrow! one long one short. LOL! " luckily i dint glance nor look through it, i might have died. =/


HE'S SO CUTE!! 100% CUTE! and he's got the gong gong look. ain it adorable?
i love my blur boy! xD


i was thinking, why should i be afraid and keep running away from him? and them? nop! i shouldnt be. either ways, i wont be changing my blog. look at my posts for all you want. i dont fricking care no more..


3 CHEERS FOR MY BLUR BOY! :D


suffering in silence

everything's a mistake..

1 huge mistake.


i regret it..

truly..


look on the bright side,

i'm gonna change my url soon. (:


-pukes- i din even know why i even bothered. you should be greatful that i felt the same way.. yes, all of them agreed. seriously, how fake can you get? what? the next thing you can tell me is.. that you're gonna commit suicide? please.. you started it first. let go

yes! i bought the last fnn textbook..

ty puifun, matin and jasmine! sorry jasmine! for "stealing" your last book..

SORRY!


oh great. now the main computer broke down.. shit.


maybe its my fault, i never should have answered. hate me for all you want, i cant do anything anymore..

i'm under depression.. again.


why do i keep having bad luck? maybe its called, karma. i'm having my own retribution.. yes. i'm a bitch, a fucking liar, a whore. curse me, may i be gone soon. why cant i be like other kids? i look like a normal kid. but, why cant i just be like them? i'm going bonkers soon. the first week of school has just ended. and.. my troubles are starting to surface up again. its like a daily routine.. for a year or so. nobody ever listens to me anymore. talk behind my back for all you want you miserable people, i dont really fricking care. i cant do anything right.. crap. how stupid can i get? she told me what you felt after hearing my tone yesterday. sorry.. please dont let this thing get to you that much. my little piece of heaven suddenly turns dark. and its only the beginning of year 2006. i wanna end this fucking life..


those shoutings, yellings, screamings, constantly repeating itself in my mind. throbbing in my head. i've tried many ways to stop it, but i failed. dark clouds hoved around the white, cheery, puffy clouds. it resembles like my life, which was once like a heaven, but its hell to me now. the night came, thunder filled with angst yelled out. the eye-shattering lightning flashed endlessly. negative thoughs engulfed my mind, controlling me to do things which i detests. fighting that moment, i'm helplessly dangling on a piece of string. sometimes i wished that i could just fall. after ending my life, i might not feel that hurtful and miserable on the inside. who knows? i might be in heaven..

qyqyqyqyqy

imysm.

:)

i fell sick. stupid bacteria flying and floating ard. curse dem..


had to buy tt fnn txtbk. tt stupid auntie at e bkshop.. tt older one. always fight back at me.. ytd, i was rushing for time. and she kept lagging me.. shit her. and! the best thing is. after recess was fnn. yet she dont wanna sell me. *points third finger*


had fnn exam. T.T .. first lesson of practical, and theres an exam. i was one of the first few to start the exam first. we had to fry an egg, sunny side up. and some french fries. easy? not for me. =.="


tt jian hao was infront of me. he seemed like my "mirror". he kept following what i do. wad he was doing? is wad i call, copying! DISGRACE MAN!
i did quite a number of mistakes..


-i cut e potatoes wrongly.
-i peel the potato skin off using the knife. i should have used tt slicing thing.. too bad. i din look in my drawer. and the best thing is.. faizal saw my doing that. i think i've scored low.
-there wasnt enough time for me to finish up everything. i was the second last to serve everything. sad..
-faizal keep staring at me when i cooked. SCARY..
-i kept coughing when i was cooking the egg. the smoke was "poisonous"
-coughed throughout the whole exam.. OMG.


& BEST OF ALL. i have a confession..



I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW TO CRACK AN EGG!


i'm such a loser.. =.=" my maid dont even let me cook. let alone do all the chores.

IT WAS SO FUN TODAY AT MAC!!

xD

oh innocent one,
feel my mind in yours,
take my wishes to your heart;

i bought an OP BAG!
thankies mummy!


muackss!



school's reopening tmr!


that means..


i'm not gonna go online for AGES!


& i'm gonna blog once a week from now on..


pretty devasting news to me though.


peer leading tmr!
WOOTS!

=)

HAPPY NEW YR PEOPLE!



i'm addicted to point blank & WILD ARMS!! i've been playing it for about a week, non-stop.
FREAKY!


i saw that billabong bag that i've always wanted today!! but that price of the bag? you dont wanna know..


& that nike shoes? ITS OUTTA STOCK ALREADY!!
went home with nothing.


sad, isn't it?



i dont wanna go to school!


i'm gonna miss point blank!
i'm gonna miss wild arms!
i'm gonna miss my maple pet!
i'm gonna miss mapling!
i'm gonna miss the computer!
i'm gonna miss waking up late!


& most importanly..


i'm gonna miss him loads.
(:


i love you sweetie.